War Machine
by Lefthead
About this track
[Intro] Woke up in the ruins of the life I used to know Friends turned to ghosts love turned grey and cold I was just a shadow in the crowd invisible kid Drinking to be seen Pouring liquid courage made me the king One shot for the laughter Two for the fake smile Hid the lonely kid inside behind the whiskey denial Chasing lights in the dark masking the hole in my chest Alcohol became my armor But it stole my fucking rest [Pre-Chorus] Now I'm standing in a warzone with no medal and no name Every bottle is a foxhole Every morning tastes the same Hands shaking can’t reload my mind Every thought is like a landmine in the tide [Chorus] deception, allocation Redemption , temptation Every shot’s a bullet, tearing through my chest I’m a soldier in the trenches, fighting demons in my head [Verse 1] Now the trenches fill with morning and I'm crawling through the mud Every clean day costs a ransom paid in sweat and paid in blood Every night the demons march in boots on bone, on nerve, on marrow Every craving draws a target straight across my chest, an arrow [HOOK] Mama, it’s crowded in my head Mama? Oh, I wish you were dead Never received the love I deserved Begging for that in this fucking world [Breakdown] When everyone leaves the party I’m sitting by my head alone I’m tired of that voice there Jask is mesmerizing it's so cold THIS—IS—WAR! IN—MY—HEAD! EVERY—DROP—LEAVES—ME—DEAD! NO—MORE—LIES! NO—DISGUISE! I SEE—THROUGH—MY—OWN—EYES! [Bridge] Every shot another bullet in me I pull the trigger just to feel free Every shot another bullet in me I pull the trigger just to feel free Bang! echoes deep in my skull War in my veins and my heart goes null I’m a soldier with no command Bleeding out in no man’s land Withdrawal like fire under my skin, Every second feels like a sin Sweat pouring heart racing demons dancing in my brain Cravings like knives twisting driving me insane Days feel like forever body screaming, let me go Mind’s a battlefield exploding, no peace and no control I’m breaking, I’m shaking, tears mixing with the rain I’m not living, just existing in chains Every second without it feels like dying twice [Chorus] deception, allocation Redemption , temptation Every shot’s a bullet, tearing through my chest I’m a soldier in the trenches, fighting demons in my head deception, allocation Redemption , temptation Every shot’s a bullet, tearing through my chest I’m a soldier in the trenches, fighting demons in my head [Verse 2] Wake up sick yeah, the battlefield spins Empty bottles lined up like sins They stare back like “you’re still ours,” Time doesn’t heal; it devours. Cravings crawl like bugs in my brain, Needle-thin voices luring me again I know that lie That’s the same voice that wants me to die Picking up my broken armor gonna rewrite the rules No more hiding in the poison no more breaking down It hurts like hell, the fire in my mind [Outro ] No more shots no more bullets in me I drop the weapon I choose to be free.