Runaway Heart
About this track
It's a spiritual, bass-and-drum-driven journey into the aftermath of childhood trauma. Using the powerful metaphor of a frantic black horse—representing both the ingrained flight response and the yearning for autonomy—the song traces the struggle of an adult self trying to calm the internal storms of the past. It's a sonic exploration of moving from fear to integration, from being chased by panic to learning to ride your own strength. This piece is for anyone who has ever felt a ghost running in their veins, and is learning to whisper, "We are safe now." Lyrics The hooves... I can hear them in my dreams. A rhythm from a forgotten year. The dirt is flying where the wild things run A silhouette against the rising sun It's pounding in my chest, a borrowed fear A program written in a yester-year I feel the tremor in the ground below A panic seed that you forced me to sow (And it grows) Oh, it grows Black horse, black horse, running through the night Carrying the shadows, fleeing from the light I just wanna pull your reins and (stop) your desperate flight Or leap upon your back and vanish from this life My shadow steed, my phantom, my disease (Stop running, stop running...) I'm trying to catch you, please. Autonomy has four legs and a wild heart. But so does the terror. They're the same animal. The child's room is silent, worlds away But the hoofbeats find me in the light of day A sudden noise, a slamming door (a trigger) And I'm begging for the ground to hold me tighter Do you run to be free, or because you're scared of me? This fractured dance of what I am and what I used to be Black horse, black horse, running through the night Carrying the shadows, fleeing from the light I just wanna pull your reins and (stop) your desperate flight Or leap upon your back and vanish from this life My shadow steed, my phantom, my disease (Stop running, stop running...) I'm trying to catch you, please. (Whoa, easy now) Let me touch your sweat-dark side We don't have to run to feel alive Let me (calm) the fire in your eyes We have nothing left here to outrun The battle's over... but we still... we still run... (Breathe... just breathe...) Maybe tomorrow... I won't chase you. Maybe tomorrow... you'll walk beside me. (Hush now... hush...)